I don't know if any of you have had to make some huge changes in your lives, for different reasons, but I am now and I'm hoping it'll make a huge difference in my health. :)
As you might know I have a 3 year old Son, who is amazing and who I love with all of my heart! Rewind almost 4 years ago and I was a 21 year old 143lb girl who only cared about partying and hanging out with my boyfriend and friends. We weren't planning on having a baby, it just happened.
Now, fast forward almost 4 years to my 188lb, miserably, frustrated, unhealthy self and you could understand what my life change is about. Got it? No? Well let me explain.
I have recently committed to losing about 53lbs by April 2015 and that means losing about 1.5lbs a week, which is going to be difficult. A few days ago my partner and myself got ourselves fitness tracker wristbands which I am loving so far!
You can take a look at them here! FitBit Flex
The band is simple and comfortable to wear and I am absolutely loving the app that it works with! We also got a FitBit Aria wireless smart scale to track our weight, bmi, and body fat %. It's sleek and stylish and the most important, the weight is accurate. (our old scale was one of the dial type scales that could be 10lbs off...)
The reason I wanted a fitness tracker was not only to motivate myself but to keep track of my progress, share that with my friends and family, and to show myself how far I have to push myself to make a difference. I have a lot of trouble motivating myself to actually push myself hard when I exercise and so this forces me to see it in perspective. 10,000 steps a day is a lot for a stay at home Mom!!
I'm hoping to make a huge difference in my life, and my Son's life as I set a good example.
I am also hoping that mine and Mike's relationship will go back to how it was before where I wasn't self-conscious about my body and felt good about myself. Right now I can't stand being naked in front of myself, let alone anyone else. It sucks.
Right now I don't feel anything like myself, I feel lost in a body that isn't mine. Friends and family may say I look good and they don't notice a difference but that I believe is because I live in a different Province than them and they don't see me more than a couple times a year. When I look at myself in the mirror I still see my old self but I don't FEEL like my old self. I used to be a size 7 and now I am a size 16, more than doubled in clothing sizes; that would make anyone feel like shit. It doesn't help that here in Alberta I don't really have any friends that can go for walks with me every day, or go to the gym, or go bike riding or swimming or adventuring or even hang out whenever. As a Mom I also can't just up and go out whenever I feel like it because I have a toddler to drag along with me when his Dad is at work or away.
Have any of you struggled with weight issues? What do you do to motivate yourself to get out and exercise, especially in the winter? Any tips or tricks, exercise wise or diet wise?
Next post will hopefully be a review on my new MAC products that I got this past week! I haven't tried them yet (gasp!) and so I'm hoping to also film a haul video for it and will post the link here!
My "Before" shot. Me and my Friend in 2010
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